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Post by bells on Feb 23, 2011 15:11:10 GMT -5
  
She honestly had no idea what she was going to do now. It was rather sad how badly this had gotten to her. Despite how much of a strong front she tried to put up, she honestly wouldn't have been surprised to hear no ones buying her act. Valentine's day is supposed to be a happy one, for couples at least. It was to be her and Zach's second together and not a single thing had gone right. Nearly the entire ball she had been alone, aside from when they found out she was pregnant. When he had left her alone at the ball, that should have been her sign to just leave things alone for now. She hadn't listened to her gut feeling of course and instead showed up at Todd's after party. A night of people throwing Zach into many dares ended up frustrating her enough to make out with Nathan Wilder during their 'seven minutes in heaven.'
Zach dumped her and soon after she was kicked out of the aparetment. The ride home was the most painful experience of her entire life...and from that point until she had to go to school on the sixteenth...she spent nearly every moment of it crying. Though like a switch she had made sure to turn it all off... He wouldn't be the only boy, he'll she was sure she could have just about anyone that she wanted. Isabella Rose was one of if not the most popular girl at Xavier high school.
You don't know what you've got until it's gone...that's sonething that she could agree with right now. She could have anyone that she wanted...but deep down she knew there was only one boy that she wanted, probably the only one who'd never look at her again. "Bella...you okay...?" She jumped, a gasp escaping her lips when she felt a hand on her shoulder. For a while she had been in the bathroom...just at the start of the last class...she had suddenly sick to her stomach.
The baby, of course....she wasn't even a month in and it was already a bitch....she honestly didn't know how she was going to get through this, even more so now that she was going to have to do it alone. While standing over the sink, her blonde out of her face. It was then that Serena walked over to her. Asking her if she was okay, Bella closed her eyes a soft sigh escaping her lips. "Yes. Fine..." She murmured under her breath, it was far from true but she didn't want anyone to know that.
Serena for her last class of the day, she was a teacher aid...and so it left with quite a bit of free time. Bella was her best friend and seeing her in the bathroom like this...well she didn't like it at all. She hadn't attended the after party, but she had certainly heard all about it. Her blue eyes softened, waiting to say more, but Bella beat her to it. "I'm fine...really I am..just not feeling well. So don't worry. Anyway..,I have to go..."
Bella smiled faintly in her friends direction, determined to make her words true. If only her only problem was the fact that her baby was making her sick as hell. With the baby in mind...it meant she had a few months if that to find someone else, not many guys were crazy about pregnant women. Her green eyes fell upon the mirror, fixing her hair a bit before she turned and walked away from the mirror and out of the bathroom...of course the moment she stepped into the hall and walked right in to someone....
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Post by zach on Feb 23, 2011 16:56:17 GMT -5
   This was all very new to Zachary Fisher Monteith, which was probably why he wasn’t taking it so well at all. He had never been dumped or cheated on before, never been in love before or gotten a girl pregnant before. His life had always been relatively normal and happy. Nothing bad ever really happened until Bella Rose came into his life. Zach had loved her so much, but she caused too many problems. Gabe never liked her, always warned him about her. Bella was too much like most girls, the very girls Gabe disliked. But Zach put it off, because he had cared too much about Bella. But then she had gotten pregnant. He always made sure to use a condom! And how was he supposed to react? He was sixteen years old. Was he automatically expected to be mature about things? He was upset. What was he supposed to do, hold her and tell her everything was okay while he got to freak out? He didn’t want a baby. And any talk of abortion and adoption didn’t seem to get through to her. Then at the party she had made out with Nathan Wilder! He had caught them and from how they looked it had come pretty close to being a lot more than that. Ever since things had been bad. Zach hadn’t exactly been nice, but no one could blame him. Especially since no one seemed to think it was a big deal. His friends were on his side, sure. But everyone else? They either pitied Bella or they just didn’t have an opinion at all, which infuriated him. She had cheated on him, and it didn’t’ seem to matter to much of anyone but Zach and his friends. Personally, Zach was disgusted by her. He had never once thought of cheating and he always viewed it as something horrible, something wrong…One of the worst things a person could do. It was a matter he had always felt very strongly about, especially since his parents had nearly gotten divorced over his father’s cheating. Things were okay now, but it only strengthened Zach’s beliefs. Any good thing he had ever seen in Bella was diminished and all she was to him was dirt, a disease, something gross and something to stay out of contact with. She had hurt him more than he had ever in his life been hurt, and he despised her for that. Luckily he had some of the best friends in the world. Gabe and Todd did a good job of defending him and while he was too nice to say much more about or to Bella than he already had, they easily picked up the slack. And in order to move on, he now had a date with Santana Ramirez. She was a slut, but at least it was a fact she advertised and admitted to, so there would be no surprises. Zach didn’t want another girlfriend, he just wanted someone to keep his mind off of Bella and help force him to move on. A few casual dates with Santana would be a nice start, he decided, as he walked down the hall towards his next class. Just in time for Bella to walk out of the bathroom and right into him. Zach turned to make sure she was okay before realizing who she was. Immediately his face hardened and he turned away from her, walking off. So much for a good day. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - [/font] tagged for namehere with wordcounthere words. i am wearing this and listening to hookmeup-theveronicas
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Post by bells on Feb 23, 2011 18:06:03 GMT -5
Bella had felt queasy all day...and of course she simply brushed it off as a result of her pregnancy.. Perhaps this was Hera getting back at her...for whatever she had done to anger the gods. Sure she had cursed at her Mother quite a but, but her live life had already gone to he'll...wasn't much else Aphrodite could ruin when it came to that department. There were things of course, though given the way she felt now...she was doubting there was a pain worse than this.
She felt sick from her pregnancy...but all the uneasiness, deep down she knew that it was much more than that. Bella was rather popular and in high school, reputation was everything. The things people thought and said, it did matter whether you liked it or not. Since Valentine's day, her mind had been focusing on just that...on what people would say about her and about Zach..they had probably been one of the hottest couples and it was a rather ugly breakup.
When it came down to it, she regretted what had happened. She loved Zach...and age still did, never had she cared about someone so much... And she had hurt him, Bella knew that she deserved to be alone. All the horrid things that were said about her she agreed with and anyone who tried defending her, it just made her feel that much worse. Concern and putty wouldn't make her feel better...she honestly didn't know what to do. As she left the bathroom, part of her was tempted to go to the nurse and ask if she could leave early.
But if only she had stayed in the bathroom a little while longer. Or at the very least waited for Serena before she left. As she stepped out of the bathroom, she walked right into someone else...the last person that she wanted to see...well one of, it was a list that seemed to be growing lately. She body hit into his, causing her to stumbled back a few steps. "Sorry I-" Her voice was lost somewhere in her throat when her eyes fell upon the only other person in the hall...the only person that she saw at least. Her expression hardened, her attempt at hiding the pain that came over her overwhelmingly fast. "Wow...You won't even talk to me..." Sarcasm was in her voice, as she folded her arms around her torso. "Ohhh that's right, you get your friends to talk for you."
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Post by zach on Feb 23, 2011 18:25:03 GMT -5
All he wanted to do was get away from her. Her sarcastic words made him laugh bitterly, but it was what he said about his friends that made him stop. He clenched his jaw in aggravation and turned to her. “I can’t control what my friends do, Bella. I don’t know why I’d try because everything they say is true and you deserve to hear it,” he told her, shaking his head. “Yet you sit here firing back at everyone else. At me and Todd and Gabe and even Santana. You shoot back at everyone and you don’t have the right to do that. None of them did anything wrong here, Bella. YOU did. You and Nathan Wilder and that’s it. But no one says anything about it, Bella. The only people saying anything bad about you are my friends. And do you know how stupid that is? You cheated on me. And it doesn’t even seem to matter to anyone else. It’s just another thing. But you know how I feel about that, Bella! You always knew.” Bella had been his girlfriend for over a year. He had loved and trusted her more than anything. She knew about his parents near-divorce and she knew how he felt about cheating. That’s why he never once, not ever dared to consider the possibility of cheating on her. Even if he had wanted to, he wouldn’t have. But he hadn’t even wanted to. No amount of hot and beautiful girls made him want to stray from Bella. He had adored her. He had always thought such wonderful things about her. Zach shook his head, hot tears stinging his eyes again. He was a guy, a football player, and here he was feeling like he could cry right now. He shook his head and never let them fall, didn’t dare look at Bella. “I don’t want you, Bella. I want nothing to do with you. You disgust me,” he told her, voice shaking in anger and pain as he spoke. “I loved you…And I still do. But I will not do that, Bella. I will not be with someone who cheats. I will not be that person who takes someone back for something like that! And my mom worries, like crazy, every time my dad’s even a few minutes late home from work. I don’t want to live like that. I won’t stay with anyone who hurt me like that. Just stay away from me. Okay? Just leave me alone,” he demanded, swallowing hard. “I don’t want to deal with this and I won’t put up with it. Just go and just stop talking, Bella. If they say anything, ignore them. They’ll eventually stop. But just…Leave them alone and leave me alone and just stay out of my life.” - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - [/font] tagged for namehere with wordcounthere words. i am wearing this and listening to hookmeup-theveronicas
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Post by santana on Feb 23, 2011 19:11:25 GMT -5
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Santana waited in the stall, filing her nails as Serena and Bella went on with the Isabella Rose pity party just outside. She was pregnant and upset, but still, it was kind of annoying. Which was why Santana remained hidden in the stall, alternating between examining her nails and texting until everyone was gone. She sure as hell didn’t want to deal with any of that, so she breathed a sigh of relief as she walked out and straight towards a mirror, running her fingers through her hair, fluffing and fixing it until she was pleased with every last strand of it. Her sharp eyes examined herself, everything from hair to her make up (she pressed her fingers under her eyes, wiping away excess mascara and eyeliner and did the same around her mouth for lipstick), and finally her clothes. She straightened them, undid a few more buttons on her top so the top edges of her hot pink bra showed slightly. Her hands grasped her breasts, shifting her bra and moving everything into better positions before putting her hands on her hips and grinning her winning smile before letting her face fall into a disgusted grimace with herself.
She was not a nice person and very rarely pretended to be. She wasn’t honest-bitchy, she was bitchy-to-be-a-bitch. She enjoyed making people feel like crap and making herself feel better in the process. She had done enough to completely destroy her sister Carmen’s reputation at this school the moment they arrived, and the bitch was lucky she was graduating this year. Only a few more months of misery for the fat cow before she could escape the cruel world of high school. Carmen was unlucky whereas her sister was graced with good looks from her mother and a both charming and demanding demeanor that kept her high on the social hierarchy. She slept with all of the hottest guys at school and she had money. What else did anyone else want from her? If they wanted nice, they had to show up with some bling or a new ride or something. Sex didn’t cost you anything, but kindness would. It took a bit more effort to be friendly.
Pleased with her reflection, Santana blew herself a kiss and winked before walking out, surprised to still see Bella in the hallway as the tardy bell rang…Along with Zach. Zach Monteith…A delicious football player and Bella’s baby daddy and ex boyfriend. As well as Santana’s bit of entertainment for the night. “Ooh. I smell tension,” Santana said with a smirk, walking over to Zach’s side. “Everything okay?” she asked obliviously, but she had a fine idea of what was going on. With all of the Facebook drama and relationship drama, she didn’t have to hear or see anything to have a fine idea of this.
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Post by bells on Feb 23, 2011 19:19:33 GMT -5
Bella had been thinking about this moment for a while, they hadn't seen each other since that moment he'd opened the closet. In the closet...she hadn't been thinking....everything had happened so fast. She had been upset when her name was called and going in there couldn't have been at a worse time. Bella wasn't attracted to Nate in anyway...it was just horrible that she had gone into the closet with one of the few people that'd take advantage of how out of her mind she had been.
Standing here in the hallway with him, part of her just wanted to turn and walk away. Unless you counted the drama on Facebook, she hadn't said anything to him since he had dumped her. She closed her eyes for a moment, looking away from him when he turned to of course defend his friends. Even now she still couldn't see what he saw in them. Never had she gotten along with then, but no longer did she have to try to. She swallowed feeling a lump formin her throat, defending herself was something she wanted to do...but she knew that he was right...
"I didn't...plan for any of it to happen...it just did, and there's nothing I wouldn't give to take it back..." Her emotions were out of control, she knew nothing would change what had happened or how he felt about her...but she knew she'd always regret it, if she didn't tell him everything. "I know...I don't have any right to defend myself..I deserve worse than what I've gotten... Excuses won't matter...but I was just upset over everything that happened.. Game or not it was all getting to me and just hearing you talk about Gabe. Honestly...I was already afraid that I would have to choose between you and the baby...because I was afraid you'd leave if I couldn't give him...or her up. But then I went and fucked it up anyway..."
She stopped, taking in one deep breath after another...trying to try and keep herself from completely losing control of herself. She felt like such a bitch...and standing here with him it only made her feel that much worse. "I-I wouldn't..." She began to say she'd never be like that...she'd never hurt him like this again and they wouldn't be like his parents...but, she had done enough damage to him...and defending herself really wasn't something that she wanted to do.
"I'm sorry..." Her voice cracking, so low that the words would barely be heard. She shook her head, lowering it so that her hair feel into her face. Hot tears stung her eyes, threatening to fall down her face but she didn't have the right to cry. She hurt and she was pain...because she had hurt him...and it seemed so stupid and selfish...but nothing really seemed to make much sense lately. Of course when she thought things couldn't get any worse...."Nothing Santana..."
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Post by zach on Feb 23, 2011 19:43:55 GMT -5
She didn’t plan for it to happen. Zach shook his head and resisted the urge to roll his eyes. His dares had been bad and maybe talking about Gabe hadn’t been good, but he had been drunk and words came out a little easy. But none of those things led to him even thinking of cheating. He loved her. “There is no excuse for what you did. Being drunk, being high, being upset, being hormonal…None of that excuses it. Because no matter how drunk I ever was, no matter what girls I was around, no matter what I have never even considered doing that to you. You know,” he said, laughing bitterly, “I used to think you were the best thing that ever happened to me. I used to wonder, how on earth I had been so lucky to find you. You were everything to me and I tried so hard…I always tried so hard to make you happy and to be good to you. But that wasn’t enough! And now…Fucking baby!”The pregnancy had been at the back of his mind, always there but never at the forefront. But now she brought up the baby and Zach shook his head. “It doesn’t even matter, though, because even if we’re broken up, if you keep it I’m still fucked! Child support! Ugh! I want to go to college! I want a chance at a life, I want to…I had so many fucking dreams. And what good is a baby going to do? We’ll be working at fast food joints and movie rental stores for the rest of our lives, living in crappy trailer parks all because of a baby that would have been better off with someone else anyway! God…Never mind. We are not doing this. I need to get to class…” Zach said, looking around, suddenly unable to remember what time it was or what class he needed to get to where. Bella went on a moment but Zach turned, ready to go until Santana showed up. Zach smiled awkwardly at her, suddenly feeling bad for asking out Santana. But he pushed that thought away. He hadn’t done anything wrong. “I’m just concerned about my friends,” Santana cooed in a friendly voice that was far too fake as she reached out and pinched Zach’s cheek. “You both look so upset. I’m sorry if our date upsets you, Bella…I didn’t even think of that,” Santana lied. She highly doubted Zach had told his precious Bella about their date and she hadn’t been on Facebook yet to see if anything was mentioned. But still, it was always fun. “Either way you should both probably try to calm down. All of this fighting isn’t good for the baby. Or the booze, Bella, so you might want to lay off a bit. I heard about the party,” she whispered, making her best concerned face. “I hope it doesn’t come out deformed. That would, like, really suck,” she said, brushing her hair out of her face and smiling that bright smile she hated. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - [/font] tagged for namehere with wordcounthere words. i am wearing this and listening to hookmeup-theveronicas
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Post by bells on Feb 23, 2011 21:21:20 GMT -5
"I know there isn't...." The way she sounded, it was just pitiful, she sounded so pathetic and there was nothing she could do about it. All that had happened, she had no one to blame but herself...as much as she wanted to. Honestly she wanted to say Nate had forced himself on her, that sounded like a reasonable thing...given his reputation. But...she couldn't lie to Zach, even for the sake of trying to save their relationship. With a shaky hand she reached up to brush a loose strand of hair from out of her face.
There was a quite sigh and silence that followed after that, it was awkward and honestly she didn't know what to do. Never had they been like this...but after all that had taken place...it shouldn't have been much of a surprise. "There isn't an excuse for any of it...I just had to tell you..." She lowered her gaze once more to the ground...she felt sick, but not in the normal sense. She hurt on the inside...the way she felt for him simply couldn't just go away. And now here she was standing in front of him only hurting him more.
She was making him feel worse by just being near him...though he was certainly making him feel worse. He needed to just rip her heart out and put her out of her misery, that would be easier than this. The way he felt about her...well how he used to feel about her. Her heart skipped a beat, feeling something...she wanted to feel happy, but it was impossible...very bittersweet. She bit her lip, not sure what to say for the moment at least.
As she tried to think of something to say about one thing, he moved on to another subject. One that may have been even harder for both them. The unborn baby in her stomach...and together or not, it'd effect both of them. Slowly, she placed a hand over her still flat stomach.. And a moment later she shook her head. "I don't have the right to, but I love you...As far as the baby goes, if I do choose to keep it...you wouldn't have to be involved at all if you don't want to... I couldn't do that to you...if the baby is around, I'll do it on my own..." No child support, no nothing...maybe her life was done...but she wouldn't ruin his...
It was something she'd figure out on her own...and he was right...a baby would be better off with someone else...but she didn't have the heart to do it. Of course then it got sooo much worse in the form of Santana. She blinked to get rid of her tears, and expression hardened before her gaze turning to the other girl.. Of course that hard exterior vanished the moment a date was brought up, her stomach dropped and she felt as if she was going to burst into tears...that and even worse she wanted to fall to her knees and beg Zach to forgive her, she loved him so much...and just the idea of him with anyone killed her. "Yes..I'm sure you're so sorry." She replied her voice understanding, but she was anything but. Bella bite her tounge, despising the way Santana spoke her baby. "I'm sure they'll be fine...."
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Post by serena on Feb 24, 2011 8:40:33 GMT -5
 ♥ NOW LISTEN TO ME, BABY ♥BEFORE I LOVE AND LEAVE YOU( • T H E Y C A L L M E H E A R T B R E A K E R • )
A lot was going on and Ms Rapunzel Serenita Carrick, had iintentionally or not placed herself right in the middle of it all. She tried to get along with everyone...and so at this point no sides were taken on her part. Though she had shown sympathy for both parties(in her own way.) Bellea was one of her closest friends and a fellow cheerleader so she couldn't turn her back on her. Then there was Zach...who she always really had a crush on but never did anything because she thought he and Bella were amazing together.
It was pretty quite, aside from a few other students rushing to get to class, it was just her and a few others. Sure she was supposed to be in class but she wasn't in a big hurry to get there. After Bella had left the bathroom, her focus went back to her reflection. She pressed her lips together, moving them back and forth to move her lipstick all around. While she did that her hands worked on her hair, teasing and fluffing it. Sure there was only about an hour left of school but she wanted to look good every second.
Besides there was cheerleading Tryouts this week for next year. For those who were going to fill the spots of those graduating that year. Honestly part of her did want to go, to see the potential new girls but she had other things to do...like her job at Victoria secret. Looking at her, you'd never picture her as the type to work...or for that matter be very good. She wasn't the best, but customers really liked her...she was honest and she had great tastes in fashion even bras and panties. Speaking of, not knowing if anyone was there and not caring, she pulled down her top a bit to adjust her bra.
There was the creek of the door and in the reflection she saw Santana stepping out of one of the stalls. "Santana! When did you get here?" She asked, grinning after she spoke. Serena thought nothing of it when she left, until she heard voices...turning around she walked towards the door. First pulling her top up of course before stepping into the hallway. "What's going on?"
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